When I was writing my first book I was so excited. I felt like God had given me a vision that I was going to be this awesome writer. So I told all my friends “I am writing a novel. And I feel like God is going to bless it.” A few months went by and I was knocking out pages of this thing each day. I had outlines, chapters, and plots coming out my ears. The more I wrote the bigger my dream became. It was like a balloon bigger and bigger and bigger. When I got past about one hundred pages I felt like I had arrived. Nothing could stop me now. Then it seemed like the book took all my focus. It even took some focus away from God. This was ironic since I was doing this for God. I mean because I felt He wanted me to write this thing. I had asked people to proofread it for me and give me their honest opinion. But before i gave them a copy I built it up so much. I went on and on about how thought out these characters were and on and on about the story line and it’s complexity. I knew, like knew they would love it. I will be gracious to myself and say they didn’t hate it. But weeks went by and I would say have you finished it yet? What did you think? Did you get to this part? I was utterly perplexed that they were able to put it down. I don’t say this because I was conceited in my abilities; I was confident in God and what I thought He could do through me. This happened to Joseph too. In Genesis 37 it reads:
Joseph had a dream, and when he told it to his brothers, they hated him all the more. 6 He said to them, “Listen to this dream I had: 7 We were binding sheaves of grain out in the field when suddenly my sheaf rose and stood upright, while your sheaves gathered around mine and bowed down to it.”
8 His brothers said to him, “Do you intend to reign over us? Will you actually rule us?” And they hated him all the more because of his dream and what he had said.
9 Then he had another dream, and he told it to his brothers. “Listen,” he said, “I had another dream, and this time the sun and moon and eleven stars were bowing down to me.”
10 When he told his father as well as his brothers, his father rebuked him and said, “What is this dream you had? Will your mother and I and your brothers actually come and bow down to the ground before you?” 11 His brothers were jealous of him, but his father kept the matter in mind. (Genesis 37:5-11 NIV)
Joseph’s dream was decades away. After he was given the vision he blabbed to those around him. Then he had to go through what I will call “the pit season”. After he prematurely ran with this new and profound info he had to go through a process. A humbling and painful process of being in the pit of despair numerous times and then being rescued by God. So why did God give it to him so early?
“There are times when God gives you a dream that only the person you’ll grow to be can fulfill. It is the time between now and then that will make you exactly who you need to be.”
Unfortunately that novel I wrote years ago was never published. But it was my beginning. It was the start of this thing God gave me of who He wants me to become. The problem was I got the vision and I forgot to steward it. I told people prematurely. I didn’t take the time to pray, work and let God cultivate the vision before I told anyone. I had gotten so excited that I forgot that my vision was an end result while I was merely still a beginner. I hadn’t even asked God if I was supposed to write a romance novel or a bible study. I just assumed He would have me writing romance since I love the idea of love. Like most amazing and wonderful things in life there is a process that makes that thing wonderful and amazing. Books have stages of outlines, rough drafts, editing, and re-editing. Think of the world’s best chocolate cake. It didn’t start out the best. It doesn’t even start as cake. It starts as different things that have to be mixed, broke, opened, cracked, stirred. Even after all that it could still turn out as burnt chocolate cake. Who can really say for sure when the process is done except the one who gave you the vision, your Maker. My point is maybe you have a dream or a vision of what God can do with you or use you to accomplish. No matter where you are in the process remember that you are the keeper of that vision. No one else will be able to see it quite like you do. If you’re patient in time God will bring people along side you to share your vision when the time is right.
If you’re in the pit right now, don’t give up. If you are knee deep in the middle of mourning over a what you thought was going to be your moment, don’t give up. Whatever prompted you to put yourself out there just remember it is all a part of the growing/making process. You are becoming exactly who you were meant to be. Cultivate your dream, hone your craft, and watch as your destiny unfolds.
May you be blessed and encouraged.
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